POEMS

 

Some of these poems emerged as I developed the characters in Sailing out of Darkness, others from my own angst. I hope you enjoy them. If the occasional one seems a bit dark, don't worry: there's underlying humor in most -- or at least in me from the perspective of now. This first one was published in Infuze, an online arts magazine and chosen as one of the Best of 2006. The photos are ones we've taken along the way.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Self-less Life

The hairshirt prickles,

Scratching worry lines

Between my tears

Because I turned things

Inside out and lost the altruist.

Somewhere along the way to here

I went from looking out to in.

And there along the path to now,

I may have killed the innocent.

Perhaps if I could mourn her,

My fingers would touch satin.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Grist for the Mill​

Yesterday I sat on the pencil point,

Stuck with my days pressing against lead.

I thought I’d choke.

Today I’m scribbled between blue lines.

The yellow background matches my skin,

And you can’t even see my reddened eyes.

I feel skinny this way,

My self drawn with a newly sharpened point

And twenty-six letters.

Even my fifty years of wrinkles are alphabetized.

But see? The squiggles tell the truth.

Off the point, on paper, my self is defined.

Part-time mother, husbandless wife, no one’s lover.

Not really.

The lead pushes, draws a pattern on the page.

Is my pain for this?

Making words?

The pencil jumps. I hear laughter.

Perhaps because I’ve guessed?

But twenty-six are too few to catch me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

​Divorce

Black night’s emptiness,

The bed reeks of nothing,

Cuckoo sings the melody,

But no one hears.

Dark caverns hunger

For what the thief has taken,

Stealing what I thought was mine,

Stealing what I dreamt we had.

Dances in the moonlight,

Ripples on the pond,

Things that welcome fairies,

Hopes that kindle dreams,

These are things

He took with him

Or things I once imagined,

Pretending toward the normal,

Pretending to be me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

​Wreckage

 

Pilings chafe and barnacles rip

At a body tossed on a word of truth.

Floating on currents and riding the swells,

It had tanned in the sun and smiled at the waves.

Experiencing a love that came out of beyond,

It had thought itself one with the seasons and tides,

It had thought itself safe from the serpent’s reward.

And if tightening lines hadn’t caused it to shift

Out of the channel and onto a bar,

It might never have known of the price to be paid

For sailing by day over somebody’s grave.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

One’s a Crowd

 

Lonely isn’t lonely

​If one looks from outside in.

It’s just the inside out

That makes a person feel so thin.

Peering on the inside

One can see a host friends,

All caring, sorting, building, coping,

Sharing life with him.